It was brutal.
You dread something, like say getting your car registered. Then you do it and you heave a big sigh of relief and think "I'm glad that's over!"
Well, this whole kindergarten thing is not like that. Because it's never going to be over. We've only just begun. And I dreaded it for a long time and then it ended up being worse than I thought. It's true, I miss my baby girl. But it's so much more than that. My whole life as I have known it is over. It's really tragic. I never got post partum depression or baby blues with my babies, but I think I have it now. Just a really late onset?
Heather got a book for us-"Let Me Hold You Longer". I was determined not to cry in front of Allie (I saved all that for Dave). But when I held my baby girl last night and read that book, it was a struggle, especially this line, "Silly scattered images will represent your past. I keep on taking pictures, never quite sure of your lasts..."
One good last happened today though, as I told Kelly this morning. I am SO thankful this is the last time I have to send my first child to kindergarten.
But enough about me.
Here's how Allie feels about Kindergarten:
Thanks for the shirt Aunt Diana.
Her "first day" is more of a parent meeting. Dave and I stayed the whole time to learn about this whole kindergarten mess we've gotten ourselves into. Allie was in heaven from the first minute! She was disappointed when she found out Dave and I were staying. Darn that little Miss Independant! I took her for testing the next day and she said, "I never want to leave school!" After school we made her favorite breakfast and we gave her a choice of activities. Bowling! Swimming! Arcade! Yeah, she chose feeding the ducks.
Today was her official first day. Meaning I had to drop her off and leave. Ouch. I dropped her off, went to the gym, and had lunch with some friends. I was SO grateful I got to keep busy because believe me when I say I was a big mess just waiting for the clock to turn. Dave said, "now remember school gets out at 1:25 so you don't need to leave here at noon to go get her." Even as I was on my way to pick her up I had thoughts of what if school got out at 1? What if she cried? What if she hated it? Of course, none of that happened. She was so happy and said she loved every minute. She was so cute with Detmer, Kendall, and Maci. Reunited and it felt so good.
After school Allie had dance practice. This girl is going to be exhausted.
Tonight we had a bash at our neighbors for the kick off to the football season. (No Ute fans allowed, although some of the neighbors did crash). It was a blast with good food, friends, face painting, and a trivia game (which, of course, Dave easily dominated). Whew. Welcome to fall.
And hopefully I do more posts this week. Because I DO have three other children and they are doing cute, funny, amazing things everyday. I better get documenting!